[8/22/2025]

I have been struggling with my position in social identity for mostly my whole life. Since age 11, I've been trying to understand why I seem to reject my masculine appearance for a more feminine one. It's why this website is called "Kay's World In The Middle". I would say age 14 was the first time I'd ever considered being Transgender. Talked to my mom about it and she helped me understand it better; I eventually decided to not go forward with any kind of transition, in exchange for some time to ponder. Some time went by and I finally made the move to transition into a woman at age 19. Though, it was very short-lived, because that was the same time the LGBT started fucking things up and giving normal trans/queer people like myself a bad wrap by acting like children. This was also during the height of COVID, so everyone was trapped in their houses making up dumb shit to be offended by.

After less than a year, I detransitioned and became a feminine, gay man. Or im sorry, TrAnS fEmInInE All that said, I am 24 now, and I think I've finally started getting more comfortable with wearing makeup and feminine clothing. Some problems like, feeling like a creep for liking Monster High and shopping in the makeup section in stores, were really clouding my perception of the reality. That being, No one gives a fuck!

Now, with THAT said, I want nothing to do with the LGBT and I don't want any relation to anyone that looks like me. I hate that my swag is being defaced and ruined by all these losers who act like the misery their lives are other people's fault and that they should be compensated.