KAY DIDN'T GET A JOB -12/18/2025
OMFG- Turns I didn't get a job? My previous diary entry was gloating about the new job I just got; it ended up being a huge false advertisement. They displayed the job listin as "$20/hr- FULL TIME". But they not onl started putting me to work before they even sent me any kind of offer letter (something in writing that shows m employment), but they basically tried to trick me into working as a contractor instead. So I -preofessionally, chewed them out over email and decided to pass off on the job altogether, because first impressions are everything, and if my first impression is dirty and unsafework environment, unprofessional and inappropriate language, and creepy as fuck boss woman; I can only imagine how actaully working there would go.
KAY GOT A JOB -12/06/2025
Turns out I really didn't need that warehouse job I interviewed for not too long ago, because I just got a job last night as a Social Media Manager for a startup Travel Agency in Las Vegas. And when I say startup, I mean STARTUP, like not even established yet. I mean I don't really know how else to describe the work environment other than WEIRD AS FUCK. I get there, and everyone is wearing suits and professional dress wear; but don't let their attire fool you, because they sure fooled me!
It was the most unhinged, unprofessional, and inappropriate team of people I have ever worked with LOL. They kept me there for 2 whole hours to work on some demo projects, and all-the-while, cracking jokes about breast feeding, china, and fat people LMAO. They even made fun of the fact that I have a flip phone!! And I'm not offended, or overwhelmed or anything, I'm just shocked that a work environment is THAT laid back. Like when I left Zumiez in August, I never thought I'd ever find anything as laid back as them, let alone moreso!
All in all, I'll be making somewhere between $20-30 an hour full time, so I'd say im more than satisfied. Only weird thing is, the boss, like head-honcho, is this little Chinese woman who I swear to GAWD scares the living shit out of me. Not because she's "the boss", but because almost as soon as I arrived she was very CLOSE. Like stood really close to me, complimenting me like she was trying to impress me or whatever; she started saying things to me like: (in a thick asian accent) "You mah favrit outuh all uhdem!" or "You ah a gift!!".
Either she is trying to manipulate me into working overtime, or she has the HOTS for me LMAO! Main point being, I'm keeping my eye on her!
Anyways, now that I have a job, I can start looking for my new home in Vegas and get my life back on track!
JOB INTERVIEW PART II -11/23/2025
So the interview was good. I did exactly what I said I was going to do in my last entry. Only problem was that I went dressed like this:
On a scale of 1 to 10 (1 being 'im a retard' 10 being 'im a genius' I'd say a good 8); conduscted myself professionally and kept a good energy.
But there's two problems out of my control, 1: im the first person they interviewed of like 20 people, and 2: It's not a group hiring event, they are hiring one guy.
But Idk I may not get the job because of my attire, but I'm still waiting on USPS to review my application I sent out so we'll see where that goes.
JOB INTERVIEW -11/19/2025
So literally a few days ago I was bitching about not being able to find a job for 2 months, well lets just say Kay McSwagpants just got his new job!!! -I should clarify, I dont actually have it yet, I go in for the interview tomorrow and I'm going to kill it.
If you've read my profile page, I talked about being introverted, but also being able to activate my ult ability and switch on Mr.Charismatic in an instant; One of the best things going in my favor for this interviewl, is the fact that the guy whose going to be interviewing me has the personality of a rock. If you don't get what I mean, he probably looks like this:
Which is good, because it means I can run circles around this guy in the interview; (like in a confident social visionary type of way, not like in a PvP sort of way!)
Anyways, After I get this job down, I can finally get my apartment!! I'm looking at a place in Vegas that is literally 10 minutes away from Fremont Street and 10 minutes away from my job, which means I would be smack dab in the even middle of both places!
Well I'll come back here tomorrow to share the details of my new job and my life going forward!
Go Fuck Yourself, San Diego!
I LIVE IN LIMBO~!! -11/16/2025
Back in August, I quit my job at Zumiez and moved down to Nevada from Seattle. I fully expected to be unemployeed for a few weeks or a month TOPS. I have been without a job for the last 2 MONTHS. I've been living off of savings since then and i've been living with my parents for the meantime. The biggest thing to me is the fact that I can't seem to get jack OR shit out here. I must have sent out thousands of resumes by now and either goit rejected or no response at all.
Here's the thing, right now im temporarily staying with my Mom and Dad until I can get a job and then i'm going to move to Vegas and live out there. That's the worst part, my whole life is on hold right now because of the job. Literally once I get a job I can do so many things I have planned.
One of the big things I was going to do was (obviously) getting an apartment, and a nice one, not some shitty run down, 117 square foot box that I lived in back in Seattle; like a REAL apartment. I'm look for something in the range of $1k to $1.4k, I know that's a pretty narrow budget, but its just enough for me to be happy with. The hopes is to get something close to Fremont Street, which is the old town Vegas that everyone knows takes vacations to.
Another thing I have planned, is starting a YouTube channel, or at the very least, making some videos on my website or SOMEHWERE. I want to make videos darivitive of my website and talk about things on my mind. I also have plans to save up enough money to get myself a new PC, I think my current machine is climbing down its hole and It would be really nice to have it as a spare PC for like projects and other stuff.
As for my lifestyle, I really want to start working out my new aesthetic; if you've read my previous entry I talked about my struggles with gender, sesxuality, and other lame shit. I've got to the point in my life where I'm comfortable in my skin for the first time in a while and managed to have the best of both male and female traits; As I am neither manly or womanly, so I was able to curate a lifestyle for myself that uses what I love about makeup and feminine physique, and masculine energy. Effectively having both at the same time!
MOST UNADULT ADULT TO EVER HAVE ADUTLED -11/14/2025
So, for like straight up AGES I've lived with this unbelievably nerve-racking character trait of mine where I dislike others, in the sense that I don't want a relationship with anyone and have always struggled with keeping people in my life (sounds mad toxic, right?) here's the thing: I grew up in a military family and moved homes every 2 years, so aside from never having a 'hometown' or 'childhood best friends', I also had no time to actual adjust anywhere. I was always used to moving schools every couple years so I ended up developing a fear of others pretty early on. Didn't like group projects or 'TEAMING up' with people.
Well anyway, I recently came to the realization that this was very likely the reason I have problems with socializing and relationships. Like I have this thing inside me that has a fear of any long-term committment to others.
STORY TIME
About a year ago, I went on my first actual date (ik 24 years-old, never went on a date STFU) Anyway, It went mostly well, until I realized the guy I was with wanted a serious relationship with me on the first date. I know it sounds fucked up to date someone for fun, but it's not some new thing that people haven't been doing for millions of years, but I like freaked out after I got home and basically cut that connection right there.
My point is, I believe my childhood has turned me into a libidoless freak, who has like ZERO sex drive and doesn't seem to care for most people. It sounds super cold and heartless, but I guess I have just spent my whole life packing up and moving on as soon as I get comfortable, so it sort makes sense to me. (a lot of sense, actually).
And ik what you're thinking, "your dad must hate you!" actually, no. BOth parents are very supportive and have expressed their pride for me frequently. I think it's because they are also aware of what i'm talking about.
I remember my dad, many years ago in my youth, asking if I felt I had missed out on a good childhood, because of him being in the Army and us moving so much, and I always remembered saying I was happy to be taken care of and living a mostly safe and comfortable life, despite not having any close friends or other things that were sacrificed as a result.
But, as I've grown up, I've grown apart from that; But it's like a catch 22, on one hand, I wish I did have a normal childhood and lifelong friends, but I believe I wouldn't be as talented and hungry as I am. I also don't believe I would be as deep a thinker as I am.
It's not so much a problem for me now, as I have thought about it a lot and have come to a relative resolve. I sort of figured if my dad and mom are proud of me and support me the way they do, I may as well be torturing myself. LMAO
OMFG- Turns I didn't get a job? My previous diary entry was gloating about the new job I just got; it ended up being a huge false advertisement. They displayed the job listin as "$20/hr- FULL TIME". But they not onl started putting me to work before they even sent me any kind of offer letter (something in writing that shows m employment), but they basically tried to trick me into working as a contractor instead. So I -preofessionally, chewed them out over email and decided to pass off on the job altogether, because first impressions are everything, and if my first impression is dirty and unsafework environment, unprofessional and inappropriate language, and creepy as fuck boss woman; I can only imagine how actaully working there would go.
KAY GOT A JOB -12/06/2025
Turns out I really didn't need that warehouse job I interviewed for not too long ago, because I just got a job last night as a Social Media Manager for a startup Travel Agency in Las Vegas. And when I say startup, I mean STARTUP, like not even established yet. I mean I don't really know how else to describe the work environment other than WEIRD AS FUCK. I get there, and everyone is wearing suits and professional dress wear; but don't let their attire fool you, because they sure fooled me!
It was the most unhinged, unprofessional, and inappropriate team of people I have ever worked with LOL. They kept me there for 2 whole hours to work on some demo projects, and all-the-while, cracking jokes about breast feeding, china, and fat people LMAO. They even made fun of the fact that I have a flip phone!! And I'm not offended, or overwhelmed or anything, I'm just shocked that a work environment is THAT laid back. Like when I left Zumiez in August, I never thought I'd ever find anything as laid back as them, let alone moreso!
All in all, I'll be making somewhere between $20-30 an hour full time, so I'd say im more than satisfied. Only weird thing is, the boss, like head-honcho, is this little Chinese woman who I swear to GAWD scares the living shit out of me. Not because she's "the boss", but because almost as soon as I arrived she was very CLOSE. Like stood really close to me, complimenting me like she was trying to impress me or whatever; she started saying things to me like: (in a thick asian accent) "You mah favrit outuh all uhdem!" or "You ah a gift!!".
Either she is trying to manipulate me into working overtime, or she has the HOTS for me LMAO! Main point being, I'm keeping my eye on her!
Anyways, now that I have a job, I can start looking for my new home in Vegas and get my life back on track!
JOB INTERVIEW PART II -11/23/2025
So the interview was good. I did exactly what I said I was going to do in my last entry. Only problem was that I went dressed like this:
On a scale of 1 to 10 (1 being 'im a retard' 10 being 'im a genius' I'd say a good 8); conduscted myself professionally and kept a good energy.
But there's two problems out of my control, 1: im the first person they interviewed of like 20 people, and 2: It's not a group hiring event, they are hiring one guy.
But Idk I may not get the job because of my attire, but I'm still waiting on USPS to review my application I sent out so we'll see where that goes.
JOB INTERVIEW -11/19/2025
So literally a few days ago I was bitching about not being able to find a job for 2 months, well lets just say Kay McSwagpants just got his new job!!! -I should clarify, I dont actually have it yet, I go in for the interview tomorrow and I'm going to kill it.
If you've read my profile page, I talked about being introverted, but also being able to activate my ult ability and switch on Mr.Charismatic in an instant; One of the best things going in my favor for this interviewl, is the fact that the guy whose going to be interviewing me has the personality of a rock. If you don't get what I mean, he probably looks like this:
Which is good, because it means I can run circles around this guy in the interview; (like in a confident social visionary type of way, not like in a PvP sort of way!)
Anyways, After I get this job down, I can finally get my apartment!! I'm looking at a place in Vegas that is literally 10 minutes away from Fremont Street and 10 minutes away from my job, which means I would be smack dab in the even middle of both places!
Well I'll come back here tomorrow to share the details of my new job and my life going forward!
Go Fuck Yourself, San Diego!
I LIVE IN LIMBO~!! -11/16/2025
Back in August, I quit my job at Zumiez and moved down to Nevada from Seattle. I fully expected to be unemployeed for a few weeks or a month TOPS. I have been without a job for the last 2 MONTHS. I've been living off of savings since then and i've been living with my parents for the meantime. The biggest thing to me is the fact that I can't seem to get jack OR shit out here. I must have sent out thousands of resumes by now and either goit rejected or no response at all.
Here's the thing, right now im temporarily staying with my Mom and Dad until I can get a job and then i'm going to move to Vegas and live out there. That's the worst part, my whole life is on hold right now because of the job. Literally once I get a job I can do so many things I have planned.
One of the big things I was going to do was (obviously) getting an apartment, and a nice one, not some shitty run down, 117 square foot box that I lived in back in Seattle; like a REAL apartment. I'm look for something in the range of $1k to $1.4k, I know that's a pretty narrow budget, but its just enough for me to be happy with. The hopes is to get something close to Fremont Street, which is the old town Vegas that everyone knows takes vacations to.
Another thing I have planned, is starting a YouTube channel, or at the very least, making some videos on my website or SOMEHWERE. I want to make videos darivitive of my website and talk about things on my mind. I also have plans to save up enough money to get myself a new PC, I think my current machine is climbing down its hole and It would be really nice to have it as a spare PC for like projects and other stuff.
As for my lifestyle, I really want to start working out my new aesthetic; if you've read my previous entry I talked about my struggles with gender, sesxuality, and other lame shit. I've got to the point in my life where I'm comfortable in my skin for the first time in a while and managed to have the best of both male and female traits; As I am neither manly or womanly, so I was able to curate a lifestyle for myself that uses what I love about makeup and feminine physique, and masculine energy. Effectively having both at the same time!
MOST UNADULT ADULT TO EVER HAVE ADUTLED -11/14/2025
So, for like straight up AGES I've lived with this unbelievably nerve-racking character trait of mine where I dislike others, in the sense that I don't want a relationship with anyone and have always struggled with keeping people in my life (sounds mad toxic, right?) here's the thing: I grew up in a military family and moved homes every 2 years, so aside from never having a 'hometown' or 'childhood best friends', I also had no time to actual adjust anywhere. I was always used to moving schools every couple years so I ended up developing a fear of others pretty early on. Didn't like group projects or 'TEAMING up' with people.
Well anyway, I recently came to the realization that this was very likely the reason I have problems with socializing and relationships. Like I have this thing inside me that has a fear of any long-term committment to others.
STORY TIME
About a year ago, I went on my first actual date (ik 24 years-old, never went on a date STFU) Anyway, It went mostly well, until I realized the guy I was with wanted a serious relationship with me on the first date. I know it sounds fucked up to date someone for fun, but it's not some new thing that people haven't been doing for millions of years, but I like freaked out after I got home and basically cut that connection right there.
My point is, I believe my childhood has turned me into a libidoless freak, who has like ZERO sex drive and doesn't seem to care for most people. It sounds super cold and heartless, but I guess I have just spent my whole life packing up and moving on as soon as I get comfortable, so it sort makes sense to me. (a lot of sense, actually).
And ik what you're thinking, "your dad must hate you!" actually, no. BOth parents are very supportive and have expressed their pride for me frequently. I think it's because they are also aware of what i'm talking about.
I remember my dad, many years ago in my youth, asking if I felt I had missed out on a good childhood, because of him being in the Army and us moving so much, and I always remembered saying I was happy to be taken care of and living a mostly safe and comfortable life, despite not having any close friends or other things that were sacrificed as a result.
But, as I've grown up, I've grown apart from that; But it's like a catch 22, on one hand, I wish I did have a normal childhood and lifelong friends, but I believe I wouldn't be as talented and hungry as I am. I also don't believe I would be as deep a thinker as I am.
It's not so much a problem for me now, as I have thought about it a lot and have come to a relative resolve. I sort of figured if my dad and mom are proud of me and support me the way they do, I may as well be torturing myself. LMAO
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